Milk Soup – Editor’s Choice

There is no finer investment for any community than putting milk into babies.

                Winston Churchill

 

At 5 months my sister rejected

my mother’s breast.

She threw up in small ponds on

the pale yellow tile

 

until one day sister refused

her body altogether.

My mother tried everything.

The milk of the fox, of the bean,

 

sheep, ghost, wildebeest.

They all rotted my sister’s

teeth. I smelled them.

Like a sour chicken coop,

 

They were the grey snippets of

fowl claws. In order to make

a Polish milk soup you need

a good sauce pan, one from

 

the old country. Bring the milk to

boil with sugar and salt lumps.

Unless you make it the Dutch way,

then you need cinnamon.

 

You must watch and wait for

the film to form on your sister’s

forehead, on her angry milk

and peel it away with a spoon.

 

She sticks to the cool metal so well.

Mother asks Sister: “Did he touch you?”

Sister: “I wouldn’t let him do that!”

In some little minutes she will be fully

 

boiled. Mother asks:

“Did he touch you?” Sister:

“I wouldn’t let him!”

You can stop a pot from foaming over

 

if you stick a wooden spoon

on top. The kind for paddling and

savory sauces. But I like to watch

the froth stain the stove top

 

with creamy rings. I shouldn’t even

drink the stuff. My body can’t

want the milk of an animal. If he

tried to touch her, she wouldn’t let him.

 

But I let him.

 


Malachi Lily is a neurofunky, Philly-born, agender, liminal Black person. Lily writes speculative fiction and metaphysical commentary through magick, Black-anarcho politics, and nature wisdom to deconstruct colonial fears around the unconscious, sexuality, and femininity. They were a 2023 Tinhouse and Roots.Wounds.Words fellow, and in 2024, a writing resident at Stove Works, Queer Materials Lab, and Chateau d’Orquevaux. Lily is a Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers Association Fellow, a Trans Journalists Association Fellow, a columnist at Inglenook Lit, a culture writer for In These Times, and the Editor-in-chief of Black and Pink Magazine.