The Bike Shop

The plows have done their work and then some

as I coast the washboard lane to a bike shop

where the sign on the main road says I can also

purchase peach preserves and tractor parts.

 

A bell on the door brings a black retriever

and the sound of slackening metal pawls

that says a wheel has just been left to friction

and its own kind of true. As the owner goes

to the rear storeroom to dig out the tire

I need – “we don’t get many Italian bikes

in here” – the room regains its equilibrium.

 

Behind the counter around a repair stand

sit a space heater and a knot of men

 

on folding chairs. Their Pennfield caps predict

laments about the price of milk or scolding spouses,

but it seems they are debating when

to stage a bike race for the younger kids

up Pump House Road to an apple orchard.

 

A kind of liturgical calendar is unfolding

with a bicycle feast made moveable by

an annual Florida vacation when two border collies

with the run of the hill will be at a kennel, which

means in turn that the date for a mud sale

is on hold, and maybe an April wedding.

 

A few deft twists secure my new tire to its rim,

and I push my bike back down the aisle and into

the cold with a slice of warm air against my chest

and a fresh sense of the merits of invisible fences.


Ed Granger lives in Lancaster County, Pennsylvania, where he was raised. He has worked in the non-profit healthcare field for the past two decades, following a stint as a professional journalist. He now writes as a serious avocation while also serving as half-time dad to a nine-year-old daughter. He has had poems published in Little Patuxent Review, River Poets Journal, and The Heron’s Nest.

Rae Pagliarulo, Sandy Crimmins Poetry Prize Winner

[img_assist|nid=11470|title=|desc=|link=node|align=left|width=99|height=134]After a ten-year period when she didn’t submit her work for publication, Rae Pagliarulo won the Sandy Crimmins National Prize for Poetry with “Hide and Seek.” The Philadelphia native spoke with us to discuss the craft of poetry, embarrassing early drafts, her career in the nonprofit field, and what keeps her writing. Her work has been featured on the Huffington Post Blog, as well as West Chester University’s Daedalus: A Magazine of the Arts. She holds a BA from West Chester University, and is happily working towards her MFA in Creative Writing at Rosemont College.

Congratulations on winning the The Sandy Crimmins National Prize for Poetry! Any thoughts on winning the prize?

It came as a complete shock! I was certainly happy enough with my work to send it out for consideration, but to learn that it won first place, especially among such a talented group of writers, was humbling to say the least. It was also the first time I put anything I wrote out for public view in 10 years, so it was more than a little validating that I’m on the right path with working towards my MFA.

Did you have the ending for “Hide and Seek” set before you began the poem or did it grow out of various drafts?

The ending definitely slipped out of me very quietly. It came after the brunt of the piece had been written, after I realized what exactly I was trying to say.

One of the features of your work is your attention to physical details; how did you come by this skill?

I’m an introvert, and I always observe my surroundings carefully. I will say that, with this poem, I was lucky. As background, I live in the house that my dad grew up in with his mother. I knew her, but she died when I was young. After my dad and I renovated the house, I moved in with my best friend, and she and her entire family are very tuned in to “the other side” and people who have passed. We both felt my grandmother’s presence in the house at first, but after a while, I stopped feeling her around. One night, we were talking, and out of nowhere, I smelled her. I think it was her perfume or hairspray. I said, “I can smell Grandmom right here, but nowhere else. How weird is that?” And she responded, “Not weird at all – you’re standing in the place she is every night when I turn out the light in the hallway before I go to bed.” I was so stunned that, even though she was my Grandmom, my roommate could feel her, even see her, better than I could. A few days later in class, my poetry professor gave us the prompt “lost and found,” and all I could think about finding was Grandmom. I simply had to walk around the house to figure out where she might be hiding. The physical details in the poem are things I live with and use every single day.

How has your academic and non-profit experience affected your writing?

Back in college I found it easy to write because I had seemingly unlimited time to “navel-gaze” and roll over things in my head. The work of life, and of work itself, makes that time harder and harder to come by. Once I realized I wouldn’t have endless hours on a park bench to whittle a poem together in my head, I learned how to carve out pockets of time, and how to be creative in the time I had available. Poetry really helps with my work, too – being creative and economical comes in handy when I’m writing a grant with strict word counts!

Are there any similarities in writing blogs and writing poetry?

The blogs I’ve written have mostly been professional, so they have to be persuasive in a way. The point I’m making is on behalf of a larger goal, like gaining support for an organization or cause. While the things I know about poetry help me in all my writing, I think style is the only similarity. Writing without a point to be made frees you up to see what else can happen.

What are some of your favorite books of poetry?

Nicole Blackman’s Blood Sugar” made me realize the power of a good poem many years ago. She certainly helped me cut my teeth on writing. I also spent years worshipping the Beats and the Nuyorican Poets. These days, I’m very into Sharon Olds. But, I will admit that I’m a glutton for memoirs and go absolutely nowhere without a good one in my bag. Lately it’s been The Suicide Index by Joan Wickersham or A Drinking Life by Pete Hamill.

What motivates you to write?

Writing is how I best communicate with the world. If I’m not writing a poem or an essay for class, I’m writing a grant proposal for work, or a sappy diary entry about an awful day I had. I’m constantly writing, or talking. If I can’t get everything out of my head, things pile up and get very messy. It’s one of the downfalls of being a “creative” person. It’s hard to turn it off.

During school, I do what I call “listening for the ping.” We get so many prompts and ideas from professors and one another, and every once in a while, I hear one and something goes “ping.” That’s when ideas start sticking together and I roll them around in my head like it’s a big rock tumbler. I think a lot before I put pen to paper or fingers to keyboard. Usually the first written draft I put out is the fifth or sixth mental draft of that piece.

How do you know when you’re finished with a poem?

In high school, I knew I was done when I wrote it out by hand without any mistakes. Honestly. I was a little OCD, I think. These days, I just wait until it feels like there’s nothing more I can say. It’s a feeling. Reading it out loud helps a lot, too. When it feels good coming out of my mouth, I can walk away from it feeling accomplished.

Does music influence your writing?

I don’t know if it influences me, but I have it on constantly. I’m sure it seeps in, and I definitely have different kinds for different situations. At work, it’s upbeat indie rock, at home, it’s mopey singer-songwriters, and while I’m in the middle of a project, it’s piano jazz.

How long does it take for you to write a poem?

That depends on the poem and how we feel about each other. I recently revisited something I wrote in 2004, so that one was clearly a long game I didn’t know I was playing! Recently, though, it’s been around three days: days one and two are to think and roll ideas and pick words and recite them over and over in my mind, then I spend an hour or two on day three to get it out and clean it up.

What do you think of when you’re writing a poem?

Is anyone going to know what the hell I’m yammering about? Ooh, that’s a nice word, I should use that in Scrabble. Should I italicize or quote my dialogue? Do I even need dialogue? I think pizza will help me finish this. Hawaiian, definitely.”

How long have you been writing poetry?

I have a highly embarrassing notebook full of poems that dates back to 1996. I also used to publish poems in my high school literary magazine under the pen name Trixie Magpie, because I thought, as a little goth-rock-listening, poetry-obsessed, fishnet-covered teenager in a North Philly Catholic girls’ school, I simply wasn’t sticking out enough.

Do you have any regular process for writing poems?

I don’t know if you’d call it a process. I always type instead of write, because my brain moves too fast for a pen to keep up with. I think I imagine I’m talking to someone in a small room when I write. I want my poems to feel intimate, like I’m telling you something I shouldn’t.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Urgent Hymn

[img_assist|nid=11508|title=Amy Lemmon|desc=|link=node|align=left|width=118|height=118]The sonnet is a paradox: fixed yet flexible, consistent yet versatile. It’s one of the most lasting modes of literary expression, dating back to the 13th Century writer Francesco Petrarca. I’ve been thinking about sonnets a lot lately. As more animated gifs, emoticons, and emoji creep into daily life, supplanting not only words but complex feelings, what’s the sonnet’s role? What can Twitter bards and emerging writers learn from the conventions and puzzles of sonnets?

For insight into this rich tradition, I turned to Amy Lemmon, author of two poetry collections: Fine Motor (Sow’s Ear Poetry Review Press, 2008) and Saint Nobody (Red Hen Press, 2009) and co-author with Denise Duhamel of ABBA: The Poems (Coconut Books, 2010) and Enjoy Hot or Iced: Poems in Conversation and a Conversation (Slapering Hol Press, 2011). Her work has been featured in Rolling Stone, New Letters, Prairie Schooner, The Journal, Barrow Street, just to name a few. An “omniformalist,” Amy writes convincingly in traditional forms, free verse, and everything in-between. Her work was included in the exciting anthology Hot Sonnets (Entasis Press, 2011), edited by Moira Egan and Clarinda Harriss. Amy is a Professor of English at the Fashion Institute of Technology where she encourages students to explore the intersections of visual art, music, and writing. On a sun-soaked April night, we met in Queens, New York, and discussed the enduring legacy, misconceptions, and permutations of sonnets.

Margot Douaihy: Do you remember the first sonnet that spoke to you or stood out in a unique way?

Amy Lemmon: Yes. There are about 154 of them. I was in graduate school at the University of Cincinnati, and I was taking a course called “Bibliography and Research.” The professor was a Shakespearian scholar, and he had us read all of the sonnets. We did all kinds of edgy readings of them, and there was a lot of gender-based inquiry, as well as the motions of scholarship. It was great education for me at the time, and that’s when I first started writing in form. I had already started writing in blank verse at the suggestion of Andrew Hudgins, who was my professor in my poetry workshop. It just seemed like a natural step. I wrote a couple of sonnets after that, but it wasn’t until I connected with a group of women poets [via a listserv] and we wrote a crown of sonnets together. That’s when I felt like I hit my stride with it.

Do you feel like the energy of the collective crown opened up a new kind of exploration?

Definitely. And, as you know with the crown, the last line of one sonnet becomes the first line of the next. So we were writing poems with each other, but in our own voices. It was really interesting and so much fun for me. I got hooked.

 How important is it to have that fidelity to either the Shakespearian or the Petrarchan style?

I would say it depends on the situation. When I was first writing sonnets, all I knew was that the poem had to be 14 lines; it was supposed to be iambic pentameter; and there are a couple different ways you could rhyme it. I am a real fan of the “snap” of that closing couplet. I’m kind of what Annie Finch and Kathrine Varnes would call an “omniformalist,” writing in (or creating) the form that works for what you are doing at the moment. I think that there’s something to be said for starting with the idea, “I am going to do a series of Petrarchan sonnets.” It’s a great exercise. And then, when I collaborated with Denise Duhamel, the “ABBA” poems, [it confirmed] that the iambic pentameter is just there for me. It’s always there — always something that felt comfortable to me. But then I think of the sonnet form that was invented by Ernest Hilbert, a poet who lives in Philadelphia. Daniel Nester dubbed it, “The Hilbertian sonnet.” Basically, it’s sort of a hybrid of the Petrarchan and the Shakespearian. It has sestets, and then it has a couplet at the end. When I wrote my poem “Asymptotic,” it’s actually dedicated to him.

Who else is innovating in this space?

Kim Addonizio. Wyn Cooper. Quincy R. Lehr. Kathrine Varnes. Moira Egan and Clarinda Harriss. Jessica Piazza. Wyn Cooper’s book, Chaos is the New Calm, consists of 50 14-line poems he calls “sonnets,” though they don’t use the traditional meter and rhyme schemes. He visited my Poetry Writing class at FIT yesterday, and he told us that after writing the “postcard poems” that ended up in his book Postcards from the Interior, he started spontaneously writing 14-line poems. After writing 300, “they just ended.” What he does is so interesting; most of the poems are very short lines, shorter than pentameter. He also plays with stanza. He is mixing it up as much has he possibly can. He wanted there to be no repeats, in terms of the form. He wanted every poem to be different, which is what he accomplished. And Kim Addonizio’s latest book of poems is called Lucifer at the Starlight. She takes “Lucifer in Starlight” by George Meredith, and she rewrites it. It’s a dramatic monologue spoken by Lucifer, and she turns him into a guy at a bar, which is just so Kim. She also has a great sonnet called “Stolen Moments” where she uses the work “orange,” which, of course, has no rhyme in the English language. She rhymes it with “fridge,” and it totally works. She makes it work. She is somebody who’s played a lot with the meter. She plays fast and loose with it, but she knows it. The thing about Kim, when she does something, it’s deliberate. She’s doing it on purpose. Her craft is really, really top notch.

It’s tight. 

But at the same time, there may be looseness in the lines. She’s kind of the master of the slant rhyme. Again, think “orange” and “fridge.” She deliberately put the word orange in there.  

Do you feel that there’s a psychological advantage to slant rhyme?

That’s a great question. There is an ease of composition that comes from knowing that you have it at your disposal. It’s something I love to teach my students, because they feel enslaved to rhyme. Then they end up rhyming slant, anyway. So when I tell them, “You have your poetic license. You can do that,” it helps. And often what they come up with is actually more interesting.

Do you feel like there’s a growing appetite or hunger for sonnets right now?

As a teacher of undergraduate writers, I can tell you that some of them come to it on their own. The compression of the 14 lines is really compelling to them. It’s something that seems manageable. I just had a student write a villanelle, which she had apparently learned in high school. It was in trimeter; she wasn’t using pentameter, so it was really short lines. But it was a good poem!

Does formal poetry offer a different playing field for writers?

Definitely. Anything that offers guidelines — and guidance — is helpful. I return to Wyn and his Chaos is the New Calm. Everybody knows chaos. Everybody is feeling chaos. In a chaotic experience, whatever that might be, whether it’s societal, whether it’s personal, it’s good to have that. Molly Peacock has written about her experiences in very tight form poems. To write about chaotic, very difficult family experiences, the constriction helped. It was like a container that was enabling her to handle the material. It was the asbestos gloves that she needed to handle the volatile material. I think a lot of the younger writers that I am teaching experience it that way. It’ll be interesting to see what they come up with after reading Wyn Cooper — his fractal and exploded sonnets. They are special.

What advice might you give to someone sitting down to write a sonnet — specifically someone who is relatively new to the form? Would you have any particular words of support or wisdom?

I’ll say what Wyn said yesterday in my class, “Read.” Read Berryman’s sonnets. Read the sonnet sequences by Meredith and Rossetti. Read Kim Addonizio and Marilyn Taylor. Read Karen Volkman. Read A.E. Stallings, who shines by sticking to the rules, and Sandra Simonds, who reinvents them. Read the sonnets that are strict. Read the ones that are veering off from the constraints. Obviously, read Shakespeare. You’ll get that music in your ear, and then you’ll make it your own. You’ll see what you have to say to add to that conversation, because it’s a long conversation. It’s a long and rich and varied and contentious — in many cases —conversation. People take their sonnets really seriously.

Do you take your sonnets seriously?

I try to. I try not to take the writing of it too seriously, though, so that I don’t block myself from finishing it. You have to think: “Okay. I see this. I can do this.” And then you go off and solve the problem.

Solve the problem? Do all sonnets solve a problem?

Yes. I think so.

How do you keep your sonnets so nimble and agile? What’s your recipe?

That’s a great compliment. And I’m glad that you see them that way. I have to remain flexible [with the form], or else I’m going to completely silence myself. You have to. When I write a poem, my spirit has to be in it, or else I’m not going to finish it. That’s just kind of the way I work. For example, in “Asymptotic” — which is in “Hot Sonnets,” — there was an occasion that I felt needed that specific form. And I also wanted to use it as an homage to Ernest [Hilbert], “onlie begetter” of what Daniel Nester called the Hilbertian Sonnet. And it fit.   

Is it fun? Is writing sonnets fun?

[Laughter] Fun? It’s satisfying.

Thinking about the compression of form, and knowing that you have an evangelical background, does the sonnet feel reminiscent of a prayer? 

I would say it’s more like the hymn than a prayer. Hymns are prayers, too, because you’re using music along with the words to pray. My family stopped going to church for awhile when I was in junior high, but we did these little services at home, when I was a teenager. We had all these old hymn books. The family gathered around and would sing. Hymns are really ingrained in me. And, of course, that was the meter that Dickinson used. All of that informed me.

I find that when something satisfies a person’s need for repetition or musicality, it feels like putting a hand in a glove. It fits. There’s utility.

Beautifully put. That’s a great metaphor. There is utility. There’s comfort. And aesthetics, as well.  

Is there crossover with your formal poetic projects and music? 

Music is one of the most important forms of art in my life. It’s in my DNA. At my house we had my great-grandmother’s piano, handed down so that I could play. I started lessons when I was six. My musical background made form so natural to me, so when I started being told I could write in form it wasn’t much of a stretch. When I went to college, everyone was doing these free verse poems, and you didn’t really do form. It wasn’t done, right? So, when I go the “permission” from my professors in graduate school it felt very comfortable to me. Plus, my father had all of these anthologies of the classics. He would read Noyes’ The Highwayman, and Emerson’s Concord Hymn. And we’d have all these poems. And Kipling. Oh, my God. He loved Kipling. He read that to us. So, with all of this, it came naturally.  

Why do readers respond so strongly to repetition?

First of all, the human ear — the human body — is trained for rhythm. The heartbeat in the iamb, and the breath. Music is a physical — it’s all about the body. It’s natural. I think about the history of how poetry started, with the bards, as an oral art. You had to have repetition, you had to have rhythm to memorize and remember. That was sort of a mnemonic device, too.

In your mind, what makes a sonnet radical?

Hmm. I’ve always loved the definition of radical as “root.” It has to have close to 14 lines. There could be 13 or 15. It has to have some allusion to rhyme and meter. That’s the radical root of a sonnet. And, there has to be a lyric impulse — a strong emotion that has a need to be expressed. That has to be in there somewhere. They may tell little stories. There may be little anecdotes. There may be a joke quality to it, right? It may be a dream song. But it has to have a sense of urgency.

Last question: do we need sonnets?

I can’t imagine life without them. And I think it depends on who you mean by “we.” In the English language, there’s nothing more lasting. There are very few forms that have stood the test of time. And it didn’t even start in English. I think we have to go back to the origins — what the meaning of sonnet is. Sonnet means little song. And then, I also think about the word stanza, which means room. I think of the wonderful Wordsworth sonnet “Nuns Fret Not at Their Convent’s Narrow Room.” Roberta Allen’s assertion about micro fiction, that the compact story is “a container for change,” applies here. A container for change; a sonnet is that, exactly.

 For more information:

Kim Addonizio

http://www.kimaddonizio.com

Wyn Cooper

http://www.wyncooper.com

Annie Finch and Kathrine Varnes’s Omniformalism

http://anniefinch.com/omniformalism-revisited/

• Amy Lemmon

http://saint-nobody.blogspot.com

•  Sina Queyras

http://www.poetryfoundation.org/harriet/2010/03/to-sonnet-to-son-net-tuscon-net/

•  Sandra Simonds

http://blog.bestamericanpoetry.com/the_best_american_poetry/2012/08/shouldnt-the-sonnet-.html  

http://housefirebooks.com/four-sonnets-poetry-by-sandra-simonds/

http://www.brooklynrail.org/2012/12/poetry/three-simmons2012

 

 

 

Art Exhibits

[img_assist|nid=11341|title=First for Women|desc=|link=node|align=left|width=79|height=100]2014: Extraordinary Gifts: Remarkable Women of the Delaware Valley, a unique collaboration of local artists and writers celebrating the ground-breaking accomplishments of Philadelphia-area women past and present.

 

 

 

[img_assist|nid=9925|title=|desc=|link=node|align=left|width=74|height=100]2013: Forgotten Philadelphia: This exhibit and corresponding book combines art inspired by specific heritage sites with poems and short fiction that speculate on the stories behind these hidden treasures. “Forgotten Philadelphia” explores hidden treasures from the Philadelphia area, from abandoned historic buildings to forgotten parks, through the work of local artists and writers.

Book Celebrates Notable Women of the Philadelphia Area

PS Books’ Extraordinary Gifts, whose honorees include Louisa May Alcott and Marian Anderson, to be released in honor of Women’s History Month

[img_assist|nid=11466|title=|desc=|link=node|align=left|width=140|height=189]PHILADELPHIA, February 4, 2014
—PS Books, a division of Philadelphia Stories, has announced the release of Extraordinary Gifts: Remarkable Women of the Delaware Valley, a unique collaboration of local artists and writers celebrating the ground-breaking accomplishments of Philadelphia-area women past and present. PS Books has partnered with the Philadelphia Girls Rowing Club for the book’s official launch, which coincides with Women’s History Month. The event is open to the public and begins at 3 p.m. Saturday, March 8, at the Philadelphia Girls’ Rowing Club, whose late founder Ruth Robinhold is among those honored. [Ciick here to see photos from the event.]

Extraordinary Gifts: Remarkable Women of the Delaware Vall
ey combines original visual art with poems and short fiction inspired by 20 remarkable Delaware Valley women. Some of these women—Louisa May Alcott, Margaret Mead, and Marian Anderson among them—are well known. Others, such as Alice Steer Wilson, Dorothy P. Miller, and Helga Testorf, might be less familiar. But none of them allowed the limitations of society’s expectations for their gender to stop them from fulfilling their potential—and all of them paved the way for the dozens of contemporary female writers, poets, and artists who have contributed creatively to this book.

“Women today, especially artists and writers, are often forced to make a choice between leading an extraordinary life and following a more stable, lucrative, expected path. Projects like Extraordinary Gifts remind us who the women were who came before us, allow contemporary female writers and artists to share their extraordinary gifts with the world, and encourage women to think about how they want to make a difference in their world,” said Melissa Tevere, art editor for Philadelphia Stories and founder of MamaCITA.

Featured women include:

●    Ruth Robinhold, who started the Philadelphia Girls’ Rowing Club when none of the other clubs on Boat House Row allowed “members of the weaker sex” to row.
●    Suffragette and abolitionist Lucretia Mott, the first president of the American Equal Rights Association.
●    Sarah Josepha Hale, writer and the first “editress” of a national women’s magazine.
●    African-American opera singer and south Philadelphia native Marian Anderson. When she was not allowed to sing at Constitution Hall in Washington, DC, First Lady Eleanor Roosevelt resigned from the DAR in protest.
●    Mary Cassatt, of whom Edgar Degas once said, “I am not willing to admit that a woman can draw that well.” After his death, Cassatt helped to organize an exhibition of Degas’ work and her own to benefit the cause of the women’s movement.

An accompanying art exhibit will be held on Saturday, September 20, 2014 at the Cheltenham Center for the Arts, 439 Ashbourne Road in Cheltenham. The launch and exhibit are part of a yearlong series of events that celebrate the tenth anniversary of Philadelphia Stories.

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Lust

You’ll drizzle rich black sesame oil over everything.
You’ll want things spicy and pickled, with tiny whole fish when
normally you don’t eat things with the head or eyes.
You’ll take your dumplings, in any form,
with a thin, transparent skin, or a hard fried shell
still hot from the oil.
You’ll crave your noodles still slightly firm, and garnished
with crisp dark crowns of green onion.
Sushi will become your bread and butter.
You’ll stir-fry all the time.
You’ll eat peanut sauce like catsup.
Your skin will smell like curry steeped
in coconut milk with onions.
You’ll eat it over and over,
until even your tears taste like ginger.

 


Jin Cordaro received her MFA in creative writing from Fairleigh Dickinson University. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming inFaultline, Sugar House Review, Main Street Rag, Flywheel Magazine, US1 Worksheets, and Cider Press Review.  Her work also appears in the anthology “Challenges for the Delusional.”  She is a Pushcart Prize nominee, and the recipient of the 2009 Editor’s Prize from Apple Valley Review.  Born in the suburbs of Detroit, Cordaro now resides in central New Jersey with her husband and twin daughters.

You’ve Been Dreaming about Streetlamps Again

Before the same strange house,
many nights in a row.
And a light begins to stir in your belly that says
you were on this street before, but
they called it by another name.
It shows you the turned up stone where
you once fell and your blood
left a small horseshoe of a stain,
and the hundreds of people
who have lived in that house, and passed
over the front walk so many times
the stones became smooth.
And from each of their bellies,
there’s a burning, soft glow too, that calls
to the light in your belly.
Calls it by name.  They discuss you,
how those streetlamps are burning for you.

Jin Cordaro received her MFA in creative writing from Fairleigh Dickinson University. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming inFaultline, Sugar House Review, Main Street Rag, Flywheel Magazine, US1 Worksheets, and Cider Press Review.  Her work also appears in the anthology “Challenges for the Delusional.”  She is a Pushcart Prize nominee, and the recipient of the 2009 Editor’s Prize from Apple Valley Review.  Born in the suburbs of Detroit, Cordaro now resides in central New Jersey with her husband and twin daughters.

A Neighbor Like David

I live across the street from a forty-year-old man with Down syndrome. Every morning, a bus takes him to—well, until this winter, I didn’t know where the bus took him. I knew only that his name was David (same as my dad’s), that he lived with his parents (as I did), and that the insignia on his hats and jackets marked him as a sports fan. We regularly said hello from our respective curbs, but that was about it.

As usual, one morning in December, when my mom and I were leaving for work, David stood across the street, waiting for his bus, his construction worker-style lunchbox at his feet. He smiled and waved at every car that passed—his routine. “Hi, Dave!” he called when he saw us. Dad was out of sight, waiting in the car. But my mother and I brightened to realize our neighbor had expanded “Dave” into an all-purpose name for our family.

“Hi, David!” we called back. 

“I love you!” he shouted, still waving. 

There is nothing like a spontaneous declaration of love to start your day. I want to say “I love you” all the time—to the security guard who tells me stories about her son, to the waiter who accommodates my food allergies, to the homeless girl and her kitten on the corner near my office in Center City. People would think me odd, though, so I don’t. Here was a man uninhibited by the conventions that limit the rest of us. Tears came into my mom’s eyes, and mine.

Growing up in South Jersey, my best friend’s sister Alexa had Downs, but she couldn’t be left alone or feed herself, and the sounds that came out of her mouth weren’t so much words as repeated syllables. I used to look into her eyes and wonder what she was trying to tell us. When I was five and Alexa three, I said to her mother, “When Alexa learns to talk—” and she corrected me: “If Alexa learns to talk.” Alexa didn’t learn, though as a teenager she used to sneak away to listen to Power 99 FM. Emotions would play over Alexa’s face, but she couldn’t articulate them, and I limited my words to her even though, at the time, I practically lived at her house. That morning when David declared his love felt like the breakthrough that Alexa and I had never had.

A few weeks later, in January, Mom was taking a sick day from work when David appeared at the front door with a piece of paper in hand. He had written “DAVID” in block caps on the top line—denoting himself or my dad, we weren’t sure—with his phone number in the middle line, and on the bottom, “7:30 PM.” He was inviting us for dinner, he said, to see their Christmas tree.

“What day?” Mom asked.

“Oh. Um, tomorrow.”

Mom grabbed an amaryllis plant and a holiday card and scrawled our phone number on it, asking him to bring the gift to his mother, Dorothy, whom we’d never formally met. Not long after he left, Dorothy called to say thank you. Mom asked if she knew her son had invited us over for dinner.

“No! Oh, I’m so embarrassed,” Dorothy said. “This happens all the time at our Shore house. Every summer on his birthday, David invites the lifeguards over without telling us.”

But that Saturday, David got his wish. His parents called back and officially invited us, along with our next-door neighbors. Ambling downstairs in athletic shorts, David gave handshakes all around, introducing himself as “the manager.” We saw the Christmas tree that was still up and followed him to his “office,” a den with an entertainment center in the corner and a calendar on the coffee table. “SmackDown, SmackDown, SmackDown,” he said as he ran his finger down each Friday on the calendar, talking me through his hand-written schedule of wrestling TV shows. We looked at his Special Olympics medals on the wall. That’s when we learned that the bus takes him to his job at an abilities center, where he lifts boxes like a pro. As we left, David’s father told us to look in The Philadelphia Inquirer on Tuesday for an article about David’s athletic accomplishments. 

At work the next week, we looked up David online. There on the screen was a picture of our neighbor gripping a barbell. We beamed at the video of him power-lifting at the gym. I appreciated the quote from his mother: “He’s such a good-natured fellow.” But in the next paragraph, the writer claimed, “Although he is unable to read or write…”

Not so, I thought, and I had proof in the form of an invitation David wrote without his parents knowing. Had the article come out just a few weeks earlier, I wouldn’t have known the truth; it would have been like reading about a stranger. But as it happened, our neighbor had invited us into his life. Once he did, his early morning waves and smiles became my wake-up call. These days, when I get to work, I may not say “I love you” to the security guards who greet me with smiles–I’m not up to David’s level yet–but he convinced me that it makes a difference to grin back and at least think those three little words.

Not long ago, I saw David trudging through a snowstorm to his bus. While wind pelted flakes at his face, he carried two large recycling bins, his lunchbox, and a tall water bottle—all at once. His weightlifting had paid off. David was also engaged in another form of strength training: Every day, he exercises his bravery by operating in a world that doesn’t often celebrate differences. Articulating our love may be something the rest of us wrestle with, but this guy says what he means.


Elizabeth A. Larsson grew up in New Jersey, now works in Philadelphia, and spent most of the interim living up and down the East Coast. Her writing has appeared in New Moon Girls magazine’s series of advice books and Cicada, among other places. She keeps David’s hand-written invitation on her bulletin board.