after “Walk” by Cornelius Eady
I want to buy a forest that will speak
in calm sentences about the aftermath.
What it’s like standing deep in hard
black soil, and Springtime, after,
cold quiet frozen months snowed in, a tiny room, the window
is all—
It’s late I think, for recovery; these frostbitten
hands and toes start tingling with stranded blood
each Spring, they unfreeze and unfold,
their secret micro movements,
and the narrow shoot,
the leaves, the leaves, I say to myself,
hard to believe
and then—
they open.
Clear cut, then chemicals, clever
heavy water rushes downhill, floods any
second to kill root,
fool the fragile,
but a crisis line, a voice,
takes her time with me, waiting,
her emails, counselors, call backs,
a forest hut, something shining—
the fire, always a fire,
where all the downed wood rings,
sing
hold your head high,
darlin’
they chant in circular meditation,
live, live, live, they live
me alive, again,
for now,
the cascade of long branches,
of arms feeling a feathery new world
in daily treacherous conditions
in hills of frozen
white.
Laurie Arnold-McMillan is a therapeutic writing facilitator in Pittsburgh who uses the magic of poetry to inspire people to get in touch with meaningful material that can alter the course of their life story. She is also a nurse and gardener and enjoys a vital literary community in Pittsburgh.